The amazement of grace from our sweet Jesus has been on my mind this morning. I have been home in bed all day due to a migraine. Although the migraine is much better, the headache is still lingering but I've just been lounging and thinking. I was frustrated to miss today because this week is my first full week with student teaching meaning that I teach all day, every subject, every day. So missing a whole day is inonvenient to my cooperating teacher and causes me to lose hours. My emotions have changed throughout the day though.
Starting off feeling so sick and frustrated for being sick and on then to reading blogs and looking at pictures of friends I have with glamorous lifestyles filled with lots of fun, friends, money, and perfect circumstances or so it seems. i felt even more down after that as I began comparing my simple, struggling life to theirs momentarily wishing for more. I then stumbled upon something written on someone's blog quoting from Proverbs. "How can we understand the road we travel? It is the LORD who directs our steps." How perfectly encouraging and eye-opening that was! I felt God reminding me of my life as a vapor. My perspective changed from being selfish and worldly, to humbled and thankful. What a beautiful life He has given and redeemed me from.
My roommate Laura and I had a sweet talk last night just about our divided hearts. We love and desire to spread the gospel to the lost world but we feel miserable in the lives we are living here in Central Louisiana. No matter where we are, we are called to live as it says in scripture.These are just some I was reading through and became encouraged by today.
"For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it."
"If anyone wants to be my follower, you must put aside your selfish ambition, take up your cross daily and follow me."
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ...I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death"
This is what we called to do as disciples of Jesus Christ no matter if we are in Turkey, in Kenya, in Van, Texas or in Cenla. I am thankful for a check in perspective but am also desiring to take action in continuing with a Christ-centered perspective. I want to live my life cry out until the whole world hears. Thank you Jesus for not leaving us where we are. Thank you that you care enough to remind us that you are on our side. You are underservingly gracious to us yet perfectly holy as well. Thank you for loving me.
You are worth all treasures in the world.
I am so thankful for redemption. There's more to reflect on. I love that His word amd character will never be fully learned. There's always more to delve into and be consumed with...
Now on to more laundry and working on the resume. Hm and coffee sounds good right now too.
Happy Wednesday!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Going on 3 bad dreams now..
I am back for another update. I have been neglecting it as my life has just gotten way too busy lately. I seem to repeat this pattern in my life...go, go, go then get burnt out. I am so thankful for work, I have just been more exhausted being sick. I'm ready for restoration of my body, heart, and soul. I am so thankful that our Lord is so good to not just leave us where we are, but deeply cares about requiring more holiness and providing what I need.
So I am officially on birth control as of this week along with all of the other prescriptions I'm taking. I'm not sure how to side effects coinside, but I have felt so unlike myself the last few days. My sweet cooperating teacher sent me home today to rest before going to work. I took a nap and had another bad dream about the wedding. I keep having these (number 3 now) dreams about being so busy that the wedding creeps up on me until the week before and then the day before and I feel like a failure. I'm so confused but so thankful when I wake up that it really is a dream. My goal for this week as far as wedding planning goes is Saturday, I want to talk to my sweet bridesmaids that have meant so much to me at different points in my life but I have not talked to in a while. I miss and care about them a crazy amount. I only wish that there was more time in our lives for people that we love. I am looking forward to a more redemptive schedule soon!
Cory came in last weekend and it was perfect! We both were so happy to see each other. It amazes me how different my life is when he is here. I long for the day (which is coming so quickly) that we get to share each others lives every single day. The weekend will not end, we will not go to seperate homes, and goodnight is rolling over. We are ready but I do see where the Lord is preparing both of us more and more for being who we need to for each other. When Cory came in last weekend, we went to this Bridal Registry thing that we got a call for saying we won a free vacation. We were worried it was a scam but we decided that even if it was, we just would lose an hour and a half's time. Basically we went, we won an amazing 2 night/3 day vacation and we are pumped!
We got some registering done too on Saturday! For any one who reads this that is married, did you register for a ton of stuff? I mean, seriously! We were just so worried about registering for too much! It was lots of fun though and a fun time to learn more about each other as we make decisions together. He is such a sweet and dear man. It amazes me how much I can love someone. I feel so blessed to be in a place of receiving love from someone in the same way that our Lord loves us. It's such a beautiful process! Love and grace are so real, so true, and so beautifully displayed! I am completely grateful that he's going to be my husband in 122 days!
We got word a little more than a week ago that Cory's brother Colt who is in the army right now over in Germany has officially been told that he won't be home for the wedding. That has been really hard news for everyone is his family and for Cory and I both. We wish he could be there so much.
More wedding news: I now officially have two showers scheduled!! I am thrilled and it still amazes me that people just want to buy things for you to bless you! So fun!!
I also have now officially decided on a wedding color----CLOVER! It's the color I've wanted all along!
If I change my mind now, too bad. It's going to be beautiful!!
We are in a great place right now and although we are seperated by a state, 6 hours, and busy schedules, we are so thankful to have the people who the Lord has in our lives right now for such a time as this. Community and felowship is what we are after with other believers and it's been so cool to see the way the Lord has provided that in our lives! I am humbled by His goodness and grace a million times a day
Well, I am off to have a cup of coffee on this cold, rainy day and then head to work soon!
So I am officially on birth control as of this week along with all of the other prescriptions I'm taking. I'm not sure how to side effects coinside, but I have felt so unlike myself the last few days. My sweet cooperating teacher sent me home today to rest before going to work. I took a nap and had another bad dream about the wedding. I keep having these (number 3 now) dreams about being so busy that the wedding creeps up on me until the week before and then the day before and I feel like a failure. I'm so confused but so thankful when I wake up that it really is a dream. My goal for this week as far as wedding planning goes is Saturday, I want to talk to my sweet bridesmaids that have meant so much to me at different points in my life but I have not talked to in a while. I miss and care about them a crazy amount. I only wish that there was more time in our lives for people that we love. I am looking forward to a more redemptive schedule soon!
Cory came in last weekend and it was perfect! We both were so happy to see each other. It amazes me how different my life is when he is here. I long for the day (which is coming so quickly) that we get to share each others lives every single day. The weekend will not end, we will not go to seperate homes, and goodnight is rolling over. We are ready but I do see where the Lord is preparing both of us more and more for being who we need to for each other. When Cory came in last weekend, we went to this Bridal Registry thing that we got a call for saying we won a free vacation. We were worried it was a scam but we decided that even if it was, we just would lose an hour and a half's time. Basically we went, we won an amazing 2 night/3 day vacation and we are pumped!
We got some registering done too on Saturday! For any one who reads this that is married, did you register for a ton of stuff? I mean, seriously! We were just so worried about registering for too much! It was lots of fun though and a fun time to learn more about each other as we make decisions together. He is such a sweet and dear man. It amazes me how much I can love someone. I feel so blessed to be in a place of receiving love from someone in the same way that our Lord loves us. It's such a beautiful process! Love and grace are so real, so true, and so beautifully displayed! I am completely grateful that he's going to be my husband in 122 days!
We got word a little more than a week ago that Cory's brother Colt who is in the army right now over in Germany has officially been told that he won't be home for the wedding. That has been really hard news for everyone is his family and for Cory and I both. We wish he could be there so much.
More wedding news: I now officially have two showers scheduled!! I am thrilled and it still amazes me that people just want to buy things for you to bless you! So fun!!
I also have now officially decided on a wedding color----CLOVER! It's the color I've wanted all along!
If I change my mind now, too bad. It's going to be beautiful!!
We are in a great place right now and although we are seperated by a state, 6 hours, and busy schedules, we are so thankful to have the people who the Lord has in our lives right now for such a time as this. Community and felowship is what we are after with other believers and it's been so cool to see the way the Lord has provided that in our lives! I am humbled by His goodness and grace a million times a day
Well, I am off to have a cup of coffee on this cold, rainy day and then head to work soon!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
New design
I really have nothing to say today but just that I L-O-V-E the new blog look! I found this cute background and I love it. 128 days to go...unbelievable!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
As I lay here in bed, i struggle with having a clear mind. All of these wedding thoughts rushing through my mind. I keep wondering if I will ever be decisive about anything at all! At work tonight, I waited on two couples who were both engaged and having destination weddings! Doesn't that just seem like such a more delightful task?!
Making decisions on everything from birth control to bed spreads to boy's tuxes right now. Although it can often be frustrating to talk about so much planning and not come up with any clearer direction on an answer, it's totally going to be great! I'm just ready to be married to him! Cory and I talked on Skype tonight, which is definitely a life saver for us when we're 6 hours apart. The connection was bad, but we got to talk and see each other for a good while! It was lovely..thanks for providing that Laura :)
Cory and I are going through "This Momentary Marriage" together by John Piper. If you are engaged, it's the top most recommended book to me from people I respect and now, it's the only book I recommend after reading through many of the chapters. It's so challenging and so practical about the foundational truths of marriage and what it is to mirror. The last few days when I just have stopped and thought about the Lord's grace, it amazes me! I'm so thankful and so blessed to have Cory in my life and to be sharing in truth with him. I'm really excited to be going through the book together!
My mom and I are going to doing some planning together on Tuesday night. I'm hoping that this is productive and we can get more stuff nailed down! I'm also hoping to get some stuff done tomorrow although I'm not sure what I'd rather do more...wedding & marriage plan or relax and enjoy this wonderful MLK day?
Maybe both. Hm I need to write lesson plans, too. This has basically been a pretty boring blog experience but it is a little journal of today! More later and hopefully more entertaining things later
:)
Making decisions on everything from birth control to bed spreads to boy's tuxes right now. Although it can often be frustrating to talk about so much planning and not come up with any clearer direction on an answer, it's totally going to be great! I'm just ready to be married to him! Cory and I talked on Skype tonight, which is definitely a life saver for us when we're 6 hours apart. The connection was bad, but we got to talk and see each other for a good while! It was lovely..thanks for providing that Laura :)
Cory and I are going through "This Momentary Marriage" together by John Piper. If you are engaged, it's the top most recommended book to me from people I respect and now, it's the only book I recommend after reading through many of the chapters. It's so challenging and so practical about the foundational truths of marriage and what it is to mirror. The last few days when I just have stopped and thought about the Lord's grace, it amazes me! I'm so thankful and so blessed to have Cory in my life and to be sharing in truth with him. I'm really excited to be going through the book together!
My mom and I are going to doing some planning together on Tuesday night. I'm hoping that this is productive and we can get more stuff nailed down! I'm also hoping to get some stuff done tomorrow although I'm not sure what I'd rather do more...wedding & marriage plan or relax and enjoy this wonderful MLK day?
Maybe both. Hm I need to write lesson plans, too. This has basically been a pretty boring blog experience but it is a little journal of today! More later and hopefully more entertaining things later
:)
Lots to do!
I feel like it's really just been the last few days that I've realized how much I have to do within the next few months, but instead of allowing it to overwhelm me, I have been productive. I'm hoping this continues :)
It amazes me truly that in a little over 4 months, Cory and I will be happy newlyweds, I'll have graduated college, and become a Texan. So many changes to look forward to and prepare for!
We are getting our guest list together currently, which brings on the reality of so many things. It excites me so much when I'm putting these names together how fun it's going to be if even a third of these people show up!
The last few weeks I've really stressed out about the wedding wanting everything to be "perfect" (whatever that means) but as we are getting closer, I'm just realizing to take it more lightly. I am just thankful to marry him and start our lives together! The Lord really has done so much in my heart as I have reflected lately on all of the things that He has done for us individually and together in our relationship. He is faithful and is good to put my mind into His perspective.
We now have 139 days left! I need to go take down a link from the paper chain... I love that thing!
It amazes me truly that in a little over 4 months, Cory and I will be happy newlyweds, I'll have graduated college, and become a Texan. So many changes to look forward to and prepare for!
We are getting our guest list together currently, which brings on the reality of so many things. It excites me so much when I'm putting these names together how fun it's going to be if even a third of these people show up!
The last few weeks I've really stressed out about the wedding wanting everything to be "perfect" (whatever that means) but as we are getting closer, I'm just realizing to take it more lightly. I am just thankful to marry him and start our lives together! The Lord really has done so much in my heart as I have reflected lately on all of the things that He has done for us individually and together in our relationship. He is faithful and is good to put my mind into His perspective.
We now have 139 days left! I need to go take down a link from the paper chain... I love that thing!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
New Blog!
We are starting our blog, hopefully off right! We'll see how much time it takes before I write the next one :)
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